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JengoFilm
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Country: United Kingdom
Metro: London
Gender: Female
Interests: Anything cinematic or relating to film - screenwriting - film music (I have a collection of over 300 movie music soundtracks) - I LOVE music and have a diverse collection - web design, I have my own film website - photography - art & design - the arts - travel - sci-fi - ancient history - dancing for fun - discovery and adventure - motivating youngsters in the industry, don't get so much time now, but offer advice on my website.
Expertise: ~ Working in the UK film industry ~ Screenwriting ~ film soudtracks ~ being older than you (probably)
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  jenscreenwriter
Yahoo:  sunbeamsandkittens
Member Since:
7/19/2004
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| In case you've beeen wondering where I've been - I'm on MySpace now as it's really cool: myspace.com/filmtopia.  Oh... Sorry Xanga!  | | |
| Hello World,
It's been a while, huh? The homeopathic medicine wasn't really working and my health took a big slide downhill for a while, but luckily my sister-in-law heard that her friend at work who had ME/CFS (CFIDS) made a recovery with acupuncture, so I've been trying it and so far (fingers crossed) it actually seems to be working. It's doing something for sure as I lost 5kg (11lbs??) in the first four weeks of treatment!  It's been about 5 months now and although it's been pretty up and down (with strange, very powerful whooshing sensations as side effects) but I've started to have some good patches again. The first definable ones for a couple of years! I think I still have a long way to go, but I just can't help but be excited. The last 18 months have been so sh**ty that I can't even begin to describe how I feel about it working.
My friend Scott inspired me to write this: I mourn the loss of being able to do things rather than regrets in the past. I don't regret much in my life at all, as I made all my decisions to the best of my knowledge and that's all anyone can do. But I miss wholeheartedly being an active member of the population. I miss it terribly. I was always on adventures, travelling, meeting people, working... more travelling, meeting more people. Now I have to make do with small adventures and I have to be a little more creative and rely on the internet and such. I really do miss being active. I went to the shopping centre (mall) a couple of weeks ago for the first time in over a year and I was just overwhelmed with joy. All the different people!!!!!! I'm frustrated and just want to get back out there and I have to be patient. The acupuncture seems like it's working and I am slowly able to do more, but it's early days and I have relapses, but this is the best I have been in two years. I so desperately want it to continue, but there are no guarantees. I feel like I've been in prison for the last six years for a crime I didn't commit and I may never get parole, so although I've learned a life lesson I yearn for my freedom. It feels closer now, like I've got a cell-with-a-view (rather than being in solitary confinement) and I guess I'm kind of emotional. I've got a taste for freedom and I miss it so much I can't describe it. I deal with adversity with positivity. My positivity is one of the things that keep me going - it's paramount. I can't afford negativity at the moment as I am kinda living on the edge. I'm a fragile little thing right now and I'm doing the best I can. I'm not really at the stage where I need a kick up the backside, but a metaphorical helping hand to steady me while I'm trying to find my way. A kick up the backside now would just make me fall over... in the mud... and metaphorically sprain my ankle... or something... So don't just stand there! Give me your hand! 
And another amazing thing: My amazing friend Russ has decided to jump out of an aeroplane (with a parachute of course!) to raise money for MERGE. What a guy!!!!!!! More news about that when I know more!!
Some more links: ME Association UK, Action for ME UK and ahummingbirdsguide.com. Just incase you're curious! 
Next time I will write something filmic, I promise! but that's all for now. 
 Jen | | |
| Hello World,
Life is good today :)
Been working on my new project, which is really coming along. I am just having so many ideas at the moment and I have been trying to get them all down before I forget them. My current project is also really developing and I love the way it's going. It just grows and grows and I think it's going to be something really special. When the screeenplay is completed and polished, I will have a go at getting an Agent. Hopefully if I have an Agent watching my back, I will get more professional film-makers than dodgy ones! My producer friend Scotty was asking me about it yesterday, so I know I've really got to focus and try not to get distracted by all my other ideas and schemes.
I am still drafting my charter for new screenwriters. I'm not to sure what the Writers' Guild or the film union will make of it, but I figure I can just adjust it and use it on my website to encourage change, regardless if they back it or not. Phewee! It's not an easy job to change the world for the better, but I feel I really have to do this as it affects so many people. Plus I feel it's always good to give, it's one of the most valuable and positive things you can do in life.
I have also been working on another film related project with Rob Craine (who works in the Isle of Man film industry) and that also seem to be really coming along. The project has a great philosophy and will benefit a lot of people, so it's great to be involved in something that is not only really cool, but helps people too. More about this when the release date get's closer
Oh, and you should all go and visit this page Zmmmm Xanga and his website. He left a comment the other day and his site is just sooooooooooo cool. He's got a blog on xanga and a website that holds many short films he has made. Some of you know I've been really getting into Jet Li recently (and already am a big fan of Jackie Chan) and Young H. Lee's films have a Jet Li feel to me (although I have to admit, I've only watched two so far) and he's just 23!!!! 
I'm also pleased as my friend Scott is doing well. He's currently getting funds for a star trek documentary and it looks like a really exciting project. I'm a bit of a trekkie myself, so I'm like, doubly excited. 
My new computer has been wonderful - I LOVE MY MAC!!!!!!!! and I have really got into iChat and I've just got a new webcam which works and it's just so groovy!!!!!!! I've been chatting with my friend Timmy on audio chat (like hands-free free phonecalls) and it's just soooo cool. I tried out my iSight camera yesterday and can use it in iChat and Yahoo! chat. Tried it out n Scotty and James, but I don't know enough people who can see me and I don't know where Mark is hiding out these days as I think he has iChat and a camera - Where are you Mark??? iChat is supposed to work with my aol buddies and I have an AIM address, but not everyone can. If there's anyone out there that can iChat AV with me, get in touch.... unless you're a dodgy dude, then you can stay away!!!
This is all I can think of for now, will probably write more soon - especially as my faith in humanity seem to have been restored. 
Wishing everyone a truly happy and successful day!!!!!
Jen x
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| Hello world,
Lots of new things to catch up with:
I got an i-mac G5 for Christmas and it's the most amazing thing ever. I just love it!!!!!!!!
I am still having a lot of trouble with aol, so I am ditching them for an ISP that loves macs as much as I do - I'm also upgrading to broadband soon (I hope; if British Telecom don't cock it up!... BT doesn't like macs either :( ) so I'll be able to browse at speed. It's been so slow at the moment a snail could outrun my modem. What with aol keep booting me off, my emails arriving blank (that's if they even manage to get to my mailbox!) and it taking 12 minutes to collect my e-mails, a new ISP and broadband should really sort this out.
The writing is going really well and a feel a lot more positive now, which is great after last years crappy experiences with dodgy film-makers.
I have decided to self-produce all my work now because of this and I have been working on a Charter for New Screenwriters, which I hope can make a difference in the UK industry and to the lives of new talent that are vunerable to the dodgy varmints of the film industry.
I will post more details in my film group and website when I've got this together. It is always important that some good comes out of bad situations. I feel like I'm on a crusade against the evil scum of the film industry! WooHoo!
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| Hello world.
Been feeling a bit down as my health took a turn for the worse. As you are probably a complete stranger, I should tell you I'm recovering from a sometimes debilitating illness called 'chronic fatigue immune deficiency syndrome' which started as a post viral fatigue syndrome after overworking when I had the flu a few years ago. It's a good thing I'm not a workaholic anymore, but I really have learned my lesson now and promise never to do it again! I just want to get better. If you're ill, don't just carry on as normal and work crazy hours because it really messes up your body!
Anyway I'd been having a really good patch and even started making plans for the future. The last month my health has been pretty crappy and it's started to get me down a bit. I am thankful it's not life threatening at least, but having a good patch, then going back to ill just sucks. I remember everything I'm missing out on and my future plans get shifted again to 'maybe'. Everyday is you feel like you either have a bad hangover or mild flu and you don't get any respite from it. You do sort of get used to doing stuff despite feeling crappy, but it's limiting and when you get a bad patch it can wipe you out completely with more of a full on flu/glandular fever thing. You lose yourself in a way and life seems to move horrendously fast... before you know it another week of your life is missing, then you realise it was a month that just went by. Feeling sorry for yourself is the worst thing... I never had time for that nonsense when I was well as I could just move on to the new pastures life could bring. Lucky I have some great friends and at least I know they're true friends... you know, the ones that stick around when life gets a bit crappy and let you know it will be okay?.... and just when you're feeling really low they give you a call or pay you a visit and you remember that you are actually a part of the real human race rather than the isolation and the little bit of life I see on the net.
My friend Jane came to stay last week and she is always good for the soul. I had been designing a website for her www.art-beat.info and we managed to complete it and upload it, which was cool. It's so good to be able to contibute and do something to help someone. It was pure joy. I realise I just have to concentrate on the little stuff. What I can do, not what I can't.
I also got a surprise call from Scotty in America. I was feeling pretty lousy when he called so wasn't quite my usual bubbly self, but Scotty didn't seem to mind and regaled me with his exciting tales of life in LA and his blossoming career in entertainment. It was just what I needed and has helped me to focus on the future again. I do feel quite pleased he's so busy as that means he can wait a little longer for my film script, LOL!  We were also planning a bit of a road trip which should be a lot of fun... just have to work on that miracle cure... I am going to see my homeopath again next week, so I'm hoping she'll put me back on the one that gave me a good patch this summer again and I can start to make a recovery again.... I've got a life to get on with you know.... 
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